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Lets see. It's been a few minutes since I was here last. Two of my best friends came home for Easter. Friday we went out to the bar. Drank a little too much, and took lots of pictures to prove that point. Saturday was a beautiful day so that night we decided to have a bonfire that no one really showed up to, but it was fun none the less. Sunday was Easter. (Happy Easter everyone!!) I went to church for the 1st time in like 4 years. My mom asked me to go and I figured I should go, so I went. My kid was bad..but then again she has never been to church before and was sure how to act. So anyways Sunday I went and did family stuff which I love doing. No one got into a fight. We all left stuffed and happy!

So here I am sitting at home watching 'Baby Mama' thinking about my life currently. I'm happy, mostly healthy and loving life. I mean I wished I had a better paying job that would help me to move out...which the only thing stopping me from doing that is me. I want to go back to school..but I don't know if I have the energy. I want to lose some weight.(who doesn't) I want to find the man of my dreams and fall madly in love with him and make babies with him. Thought I found him...clearly did not.

I'll tell you about him. My boss had had an annual Halloween party for the past I dont know 4 years. And I have attended all but the 1st one. So last year she introduces me to her cousin...we will call him Country. So Country and I have been talking since September. On New Years we finally hooked up and that was when I realized I was madly in like with him. We talked everyday for months. Spent some time together which I thought were pretty good times. Blah blah blah long story short he finally told me he liked me but then proceeded to tell me that we would never to be able to date because we would fight too much and it wouldn't be good for our children. (he has a son and i obviously have a daughter) and our personalities would clash.He also told me that I would get sick of him. Like he already knows what I'm going to think of him. yadda yadda yadda Needless to say we have drifted apart. I miss him terribly which is stupid....and it makes me incredibly sad to not talk to him or see him.

Thats all I guess. now I'm kinda sad just think about it...blah

Dont get me wrong I have many other prospects but none that I have real feelings for like I do with Country.