Dating like a guy!

I am going to tell you how I think I have dated like a guy!! I am so proud of myself! I want to go out of my way and tell you I am in NO way bashing Don.


Now Let me tell you the story. A while back...Sometime in June he got my phone number from my friend which happens to be his step sister. Which was at first weird, but it surprisingly turned un-weird(not a word) shortly after. So the first time we hung out(which was after a few weeks of talking) I was nervous because 1.) I didn't really know him and 2.) I was just plain nervous. So we hung out. It went well. I met one of his buddies. He was nice. We all had a pretty good time. So we hung out and hooked up a few more times. I never had the "butterfly" feeling when I was heading over there or while I was there. I thought it would come to me after I got to know him better. I mean I thought he was a super nice guy. The friends I met of his were nice. His family was amazing every time I was around. His kids were sweet and loving. And Haylee loved them!


Here it is the end of August and good ol' Facebook tells me he has been hanging out with another girl. And you know that feeling you get when you're told or you read something that hurts? Like you want to be sick, or the feeling of rejection? Well when I read it, I didn't have that feeling!! (Which I am assuming is how it works when men date just for fun!)  I was more annoyed because he spelled so many words wrong(which I corrected, and then proceeded to 'unfriend' him.I don't know, I was probably being a little bit childish on that one, but whatever, I can't take it back now.) But anyways. Don't get me wrong-I was at first upset when he wouldn't just tell me we were over, whatever we were. But then I was thinking about it, I think I just wanted him to want me. Which is NEVER the route to go.

I only have one regret--

So alas, I wish him the best of luck in ALL of his future endeavors! Any women would be lucky to have him. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Good Luck Don! :)

Oh no.

I dont think I have ever said my child was an angel. She hits. She bites. She remembers the bad words people often say. She doesn't like to take baths. She doesn't share very well. She likes Spongebob. And now I must add that she cuts off her hair that has taken me 4 1/2 years to grow out. Let me explain. My child didnt grow any hair until after she was almost 2. I had to get her ears pierced at 10 weeks old because people kept mistaking her for a boy, even when she was in pink! And she had the most beautiful curls. even tho it was like hell trying to get a brush through them. Haylee has only gotten her hair cut 2 times. Once in hopes of it growing. and once more to try to control her dead ends. Now on this 3 time it was cut to fix the damage she had created with a pair of scissors. The Picture above is Haylee 2 weeks ago.

This picture is of Haylee today. :( after probably 6 inches were cut off. I was sad. But she didnt get in trouble(except for playing with the scissors) because when I was a kid I did the same thing...with just my bangs...I didnt like the bangs after I cut them so I tried to cut it all off which made it look like I took a razor to my head. So alas I am stuck with the short hair until it grows out. Thankfully she didnt do anything worse. Like cutting off to the scalp! Or right before picture day at school. Im just sad for her long hair, which I loved.

So I jinxed the "boy." I didnt think it was possible since he seemed to be interested in me. but i managed to mess something else up. And in all reality i dont think it was me who messed anything up. It just wasnt/isnt the right time. Im really not too upset about it. I mean I like him. but its just isnt the right time, right now. And there are lots of fish in the sea, right?! :)

Have a good night everyone.

I wish,,,,

I think its pretty self explanatory...these are things I wish...

-I was 3 inches taller.
-I was thinner
-I didn't have to worry about money.
-my grandparents were still alive.
-that guy didnt pull out in front of me and wreck my car.
-that when you make a baby with someone you should take care of said baby.
-guys were easier to understand.
-I never let Haylee meet him.
-I didn't trust so easily.
-I had better self-esteem.
-I was a better friend.


that all i can think of right now...this is making me depressed...so im done. Have a good night.