Men of the Past

My head is a serious jungle of thoughts right now.

Men of The Past

First off let me tell you all, FUCK YOU. Secondly, I want to thank you for royally fucking me over so I can be the person I am today.  Most of you have played on my feelings and my insecurities. You said what needed to be said to get what you wanted out of me and then left just like the one before. I just cant believe I keep falling for it. Maybe its my own fault. Maybe I am actually attracted to douche bags. Like a signal goes off in my brain when I see one of you and it makes my heart grow fonder. I don't know what it is but it has to stop. My heart has officially been broken and I don't even know why I care so damn much. He wasn't even nice to me. He didn't care about me or my feelings. I was just a girl to him. Someone he wouldn't take to meet his friends or family. Someone he didn't want to date. Yeah well I was falling hard for you. God only knows why. And as I write this I know he wont ever read this. but god why does it keep happening to me. Why cant i find a good man. Someone who will love me for me, love me with my insecurities and all. Love me for my sense of humor, or my wittiness. I guess i'm not the one for you, but I will find the one for me. It may not be today or the next day but I will find someone who loves me even if you dont care about me. Somebody will.
-Jenna

And some of you will read this and think "woe is me" but its my fucking blog and i can write whatever I want. if you dont like it dont read it. (im in that kind of mood right now)
thanks.